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December 3, 2007
so, let me explain to you all just how grounded i am. i'm grounded from.
computer
tv
books
art of any kind (this includes sketching infront of my parents and attending theatre tech)
my house (sleeping in my car :( which sucks bcause i have n floor in my car and its COLD. AS. HELL.) yes, my parents are gone right now which is the only reason im writing this...
and the only thing i wasnt grouded from (jeremy; my boy-toy who i recently got back together with) has decided to 'take a break' for the month because we aggreed (when we got back together) it would be a platoninc realationship (and i, being stupid) reallly wanted someone to talk too--but he didnt want to talk...
so now we're 'on a break' because i thought the only realationship i needed was physical (but i really need someone to talk too, and comfort in not just a friend way) so i think we might be 'on break' for good now... i dont know... i just know this will be a tough month to get through. and that i need someone to talk too...
ya see, this month... is now the crappyest month of the year for me. my dead grandmothers birthday is this month, along with christmas which was like her second birthday too me, she also died this month and i was very very very close to her. she was like a mom to me. and my real mom, who hates me along with the rest of the family (except my brothers :)), is going in for surgery this month for the same type of cancer my grandma got sick with in the first place (only shes living...)
so yeah... it'll be hard...
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