haloBRAVES's Journal

WOW THAT EXCERPT WAS REALLLLLLLLLY RANDOM!!! well i just got back from a 4-H camp and i am even more hyper than normal. whatever normal was...but i miss my friends taribly and i cant wait till the fall where ill see them again at a weekend camp. yay...but now i am home working on some random stuffz and being bored. my freshman year in high school will start soon and i am sooo exited. also i have started writing a new drow fanflik called "Devil's Child" so plz keep reading my stuff it will be out soon...

well. My best friend read the post that i had made called "Before you say that your sorry" and he understood how i felt. He wants to be a pastor at a church someday. I think he will be the best at that job. He has helped me so many times and i wish that i could repay him in some way. But he has not told me yet. But i think ill find a way somehow...

Life is like a sea. You are so worried about drowning that you might forget about others in the sea with you. That is what i feel like. I have been so worried about my sorrows that I was blind to my best friend. He had had a past that he never shared with me...until now...I almost cried!! I had thought about cutting once...but something held me back. Then when I went to Spring Fling for Church...they had an open altar. My best friend and I went up. He cried a little. I did not think much of it. But I thought after 'Why did he cry?' And now i just found out from his mom that he locks himself up because he is afraid to get hurt. I feel so horrible. The fact that i was to blind to see this and i should have. A sorry will never fix that...but i think i feel more aware of life. I have to trust God with my life now. Then maybe i can help him. xxhalo ps this is not made up...this is real...