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I kind of hate Panic's new album. Their new songs ARE NOT the music I'd expect them to play. I know they can't make the same album as the last one, but they shouldn't have completely changed their style, which is the reason I fell in love with them in the first place. I saw them live and they were AMAZING. I loved how every song was a story, not just lyrics, and they had a different feel to it that made them unique. Now it's all the same exact concept to every song and they've gotten so lazy. There are 2 songs that I really like from their new album, which are Nine in the Afternoon and The Piano Knows Something I Don't Know. They still have some of the Panic I use to know and love. I really wish they didn't change their style so much. Now they just seem like every other band and they don't stand out like the use to. =(

I don't know why I'm thinking about it, but that play is amazing. It's my favorite EVER! lol My friends did it in drama and ever since, I can't stop thinking of that freakin intro song!!!! @_@ lol

Man, another concert. =) Sword fights, falling in the mud, and a beastly child whom I met. XP I got infamous Big Nick hugs, insane sword fights with the sword Rob got me (AND KEPT THE CHANGE FOR IT!!! =( lol), and was just a plain and simple asshole like I always am at concerts. =) Everyone (starting with a kid named Dylan) broke my sword. =( Now it's a dagger lol. It was made of Styrofoam. Alex, Dylan, and Maura each threw me in the mud at seperate times and I fell once on my own, resulting in grossness! Grr, f-in Alex just had to keep the cookies away from me. -.- Julio and Aaron are the best people to harass! Just so you all know. =) I F-IN LOVE MARISSA!!!!! haha. Michael is not an ass anymore, but surprise. We were suppose to have a silly string fight, but Kevin, the supplier, never showed. Blah! Jason is freakin amazing! He's some random guido whom I love. XP Oooh God, I must find him! And this kid Nick, who I knew forever but I didn't think he knew my name, actually knows my name! It's amazingly awesome! lol And the last of the quadruplets actually talked to me. =) I feel special. haha. And once again, we didn't know what bands were playing and didn't care! =) lol

I don't expect anyone to know what I meant by all that, but it was fun! lol

The concert was AWESOME! Bullet for my Valentine, Avenged Sevenfold, Bless the Fall, Atreyu, and a few Japanese bands I never heard of! The mosh pits were insane so Magz and I kept well away from them. Sam and this other girl (one of my friends) went past it only once to get a look at Avenged Sevenfold. I don't think they were in it though. Magz's sister stage jumped which was amazingly awesome! During Bullet, there was this really creepy dude who was staring at us like he was some crazy dude who escaped from an isylum. He looked like he was on special k or meth or something. He tried to start a mosh pit in a "sane" zone, and when he backed into Mag'z sister, she threw him into some dude. He was cursing at her and threatening her and it was pretty disturbing. My worst fear is someone pulling a knife on me or in "front of me" so this scared me. She got security and he was removed. Magz's sister has to be the coolest person I've ever met in my life. XP Things got crazy with A7X and even more crazy with Atreyu. Zacky was sexy, as always, and Shadows was awesome. And natrually, Syn kicked ass! So basically, it was one of the best times of my life, aside from creepy druggie dude, but w.e, there's a lesson in that. XP

Even though you don't have Internet access, you say you can get online at the library, right? Well, go to www.meebo.com and from there you can get on AIM without downloading it. Just try it, pwease! You can get on MSN, Yahoo, AIM, and something else that I can't remember without downloading. Even though they have stupid fonts and gross smileys, Meebo is amazing!

YES!!! AVENGED SEVENFOLD, BULLET FOR MY VALENTINE,AND ATREYU IN CONCERT!!!=) I love you Sammy!!! I can't wait for that concert! It's gonna be beast!

Happy V day, which should be called B-Day....Bullshit Day. =) Valentine's Day is only good when you get candy or have a boyfriend. Well, at least I got candy! Happy V-Day everyone!

I have never been that excited over football in my life! Eli Manning was awesome! Perfect season my ass! ROCK ON, GIANTS!!! XP Oh, and thanks to their victory, Magz owes me two quaters! BLAH *sticks out tongue at Magz* lol

TIS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! JANUARY 25 BIZITCH!!! :P

That movie was amazing! I never thought I could enjoy blood and human-meat pies so much! lol, was I the only one who noticed a little Jack Sparrow in Sweeney Todd? Lol A+ For Tim Burton!

My iPod...the last iPod Mini in New York State....my bestest friend with all my music on it....in the sewer. :'( I was standing by the sewer waiting for the bus with my friend Joey and I was absentmindedly untangling my headphones. As I was talking, I dropped my iPod and it came off the headphones and landed on the sewer bars. I sighed, thinking it was going to go in. I went to reach for it, and I swear, the damned thing freakin turned and fell into the sewer. Joey was like "What the hell, are we on cartoonnetwork???!" At that point, I lost it! I started freaking out and Joey had no idea why (he never saw me freak). When I called my mom, she laughed at me and said "You are sooo J's cousin!" (My cousin J dropped his phone in the sewer a year ago). I was so upset. And guess what? Not only is my iPod gone, but I lost my necklace in the orchestra room, one of my best friends since 6th grade is moving to Florida, my Si Hing is no longer going to teach at Kung Fu (Magz, don't tell anyone! No one is supposed to know yet! I'm not even suppose to know, but my aunt told me anyways), and I just seem to be loosing everything. -.- I'm such a spaz. Grrr, I want my iPod!!! ;-;

 

Battle of the Bands was awesome, as always. And I have no idea who played, as always! Lmao! Messing with the high kids mind, messing with sober kids minds, and just being a God forsaken idiot never was better! XP I met Martini again (this dude from this other concert that I supposedly yelled at for eating chicken nuggets lol). Apparently, I'm the coolest person he's ever met lol! I met this one dude who looked just like Jay from Jay and Silent Bob. He was about 3 years older then me and danced like a dumbass, but I swear, I loved him lol! My friend Garyne and I were like "Will you be my friend?" and he was like "Friend? Friend? Sure!" Then we explained to him whom he looked like and he was all, "I get that a lot" and he started acting like Jay lmao! Then there was the dude who looked like the singer from Boys Like Girls. We told him and we were like "I bet you get that a lot." And he was like, "Nope this is a first." I screamed "YOU WILL REMEMBER US FOREVER!!!" Haha, I love being stupid. XP We can't forget Tyler of course! My friend Tyler greets me by pointing in my face, and just to be an ass, I went to bite him (not for real, just being dumb) and he was like "BACK, GREMLIN!!! BACK!!" and pretended to hit me lmao! (He calls me Gremlin cause I'm short -.-). The only part that sorta bothered me was that Tyler kept making out with his girlfriend (who also happens to be my friend). That was upsetting.

Rob scared the living piss out of me! My friend Rob smokes. He was really high at the concert and he was jumping around on a brick wall outside the library. The security started yelling at him, telling him to get off the wall and I heard him scream "IT'S A FREE COUNTRY, FUKERS!!!" I was so scared! I thought he was in major trouble. It wasn't fun lol.

Then of course, as we get into the car, my friend Magz tells her mom "I never smelt so much pot in my life!" and recieved a pretty intense glare. XP Lol, it's true, many people were high and we were kinda messing with them, but we stay away from the shit, thank Jesus. =)

Besides the point, flirting with, weirding out, and scaring random people is always freakin fun! I <3 my friends! haha

I finally saw Pirates of the Caribbean 3 and I am soooo pissed! It was so amazing! I loved it! But Will can't be with Elizabeth and he's like gone and it makes my heart hurt. It's very upsetting. lol. It was freakin amazing, but I hate that I can't see #4 right now. -.-

Haha, i will remember this for a while. XD I was really pissed off today cause they day kinda sucked. When I got to lunch, I was talking with Garyne and Will and I  opened my Doctor Pepper. I swear to God, I only twisted the cap about a centimeter and it exploded everywhere! The soda went all over the table, my skirt, and Will. Naturally, I was annoyed and pissed off so I screamed "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!?" and when Will told me to calm down I told him to fuck off. I felt so bad after, but at the moment I was in a rage. I ran across the cafeteria to get paper towels and a security guard told me to calm down and I screamed "NO, FUCK YOU!" in her face and she was like "Sw-sweetie, just calm down!" lmao! Thankfully, Tyler saw I was angry and he called me over and made me hug him, which calmed me down a little but I was still pissed so he told me to sit with him, Rob, and my friend Diana. When I refused, Rob started complaining how I hate them, so to shut him up, I sat with them. I apologized to Will and got on with my day. I just wanted to record this cause it was mad funny. XD If it weren't for Tyler and Rob I probably would have done something stupid. I have such a short fuse lmao!

Er, my stupid migraines are coming back. They stopped for the longest time and now I need my Advil every day again. Yay acid! I felt like I was going to pass out in the hallway today and my friend, Tyler was like "Uh...Kate, you okay there?" and I was like, " Do I look okay????" and I had to lean on him to get to class. Then I had to down Advil and almost got caught by a security guard. Thank God some kid was standing in front of me (hey Sam, it was ghost kid! Josh is friggen everywhere!). -.- My headaches last year were caused by stress and I think these are too. Oh well, I guess I'll have to deal with it.

In other news, ANDREW GET YOUR ASS BACK ON THE INTERNET!!! =( Plllleeeeaaasse, I miss you soo much.  I don't mean to sound like an ass, but I wanna talk to you soo badly. Come back soon *hugs*.

Ciao!

My cousin, Donna, just got married on Friday. It was so sweet. BUT, skipping that mushy crap and going to the reception! Awesome stuff! They had crazy music (fit Donna perfectly lol) and even glow sticks (hardcore raving...well, not really, but it was fun anyway lol!). Brandon was actually in a good mood and willing to have fun (I love the kid, but man, is he a tightass lmao!) and even complimented my hair (that's a big thing for him lol!). The most shocking thing was that Jessica was actually fun! My cousin Jessica....well, i pretty much hate her lol. But she was actually amazingly fun and cool that night. She got me dancing (yeah, I'm not a big dancer) and made everything fun instead of bringing drama like she always does. She blames the alcohol lol.

Getting to the reception was amazing too. My mom has trouble driving on ice and there was an ice storm, so J drove us (a lot of family came up from Georgia). Man, that was a ride. My dad gave J directions (he had to drive someone else. I'm not entirely sure who) and we set off. Of course, we got lost....so we went for pizza XP. Lmao, it was great. Oooo, and J is moving back to New York after Christmas break!!!! I'm sooo happy! =) I wish Joey was coming back too, but I'm not pushing my luck. It's also cool that J promised to take me to a concert one weekend. Anything where I don't have to pay is great to me! lol.

Wells.....that's 'bout it. lol

Ahh, about 15 minutes ago I had my surgery. 5 stitches, 3 dissolve-.-. I'm still numb, so it doesn't hurt yet, just pulls, but I know it is going to hurt like a bitch. I'm gonna have people carry my shit around school. XP Yay for slavery! lol Tyler, Sam, and Magz..my three pack mules. =) I also got a pass out of gym (thank God) but those are the only good things out of this. Excruciating pain and a whole lot of nothingness....fun.

Ah..My friend Magz, she did it. She got me interested in...the dreaded....TECHNO. -.- She turned me into a raver...who doesn't rave lmao.

Anyways, anyone got some suggestions of good songs and artists?

I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman. I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights. We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time. I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room. I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me. I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear. I am the man who fears that I will never be able to be myself, to be free of this secret because I wont risk loosing my family and friends. We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men. I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me. I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman. I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman. I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male. I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men. I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that. I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual. I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn't have to always deal with society hating me. I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I dint believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind. I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love. I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends I'm a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them. I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to teach me a lesson IF YOU BELIEVE THAT HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG REPOST THIS ON YOUR BLOG Sign this and re-post it: raumthemad blackraven66 aka mrhotdude101 weremandie LifesWaitingToBegin xShortPeopleRulex scenemommie28-->a straight supporter emovampirefreak-bisexual- hinymcgoffin h.i.m.girl89-->this seriously made me cry. only my friends would understand why though. emoboyzrhot666-i think im bi but im 2 scared 2 tell my mum, my friends r supportive xxcrimsonzeroxx, horselover10970- One of my best friends ever is gay. I love him to death and you know what, all you prejudice asses should open your eyes and realize there is no homophobia, just hate.

Watch me crank it watch me roll! Who can crank that soulja boy???? XP