kagomehigurashi3's Journal

Dear Quizilla friends, fans, and anybody else who reads this,

I'm back! My current boyfriend made me think today about how creative and imaginative I used to be so I decided to do some investigating into my old stories. Sure enough theys till exsist! I'm sorry that I've been gone for so long. I lost my password to my Quizilla account in 2006 (or whenever my last post was) as well as the password to the e-mail account assigned to my Quizilla account. So today I did some playing around and managed to get my password to that e-mail and get my Quizilla account back! I can't guarantee that I will post anything or write more stories but I am happy to see my writings still here. I would like to Thank everyone who has read and enjoyed my stories. If you would like to catch up or see how things have been going for me you can either comment or send me a message! I'll try to make sure I stay somewhat active.

Love, Michelle

well... Iunno how to start... um... hey girls (possibly guys) I've been having a lot of... contrasting feelings about my love life. I just don't know what to do. My heart been blocking itself off but I still feel this pain and heaviness. I can't take it... it's just... I've been feeling like I'm unwanted by my bf. I know his intentions are good, but we haven't shagged and he barely touches me anymore and if he does he doesn't go any further than rubbing through my outfit. I've tried everything I can think of. he complains how he wishes we wouldn't of done it, and how that's all I think about and want now days. He says he's noticed I'm only happy when other people are around, that all we do is fight and be sad and depressed. I've told him how I feel, and he said he didn't wanna get into that conversation and I haven't really brought it up since that saturday. I tried to explain why I feel unwanted and we just got into this huge fight. he hasn't done anything about it, and I know he's not going too but I just keep thinking that maybe if this outfit is just right that he'll touch me this time, I'll get that feeling back... I'm scared cuz my mind has been wandering around the options... and lately that's been throwing my mind into a waking nightmare or some nightmareish thought warfare. they're kinda hard to explain. but yes cheating has been one of em... and I don't want to do that. I love him so much and I'm trying my very best so that I don't haveta end up hurting us both... but I'm just so desperate for human contact I don't know what to do anymore. I just don't know what to do...

Everyone...I got myself in serious trouble again... I finished updating my stories: Silence - Chapter 3 Inuyasha: Lost in Time #15 Angel Eyes Neglect I'm going to lose my computer for speaking my mind. I don't understand it though...whenever I tell the truth I get in trouble but no one cares if I lie...so what am I supposed to do??? I dug a blade into my arm earlier cuz I lost it. Sorries but I really couldn't help it. and it's not like I killed myself. and right now...I'm so drugged up so I'll stay calm...it's not working anymore...again I'm sorry but I did both those things so I could actually stay safe. I know it doesn't seem like it from your view but it kept me from ending my life so bear with it whether you like it or not... I'm gunna go cry some more...remember I love you guys and whatever I do wrong/bad is just to preserve my life... ~Love Always ~~Michelle

hey peeps! waz up?! sorry I haven't been active in a while on my user. but I've had work and school and just no time at all ok? but I got every friday off this month and my thanksgiving break will be here in two weeks so just hold on and I'll get to it! I hope all is forgiven. TTYL ~Love Always, ~~Michelle

okie I've had a horrible day...I was picked on by my (no longer) friend and his girlfriend. (and I was his girlfriend, parents broke us up, said he still loved me, apparently not, only got a gf cuz I "got another boyfriend" as he heard) so I felt so horrible...I wanted to cut (yesh I am a cutter but I haven't cut in 7 months) and that I wanted to OD myself (which I know {from experience} doesn't work {yesh I've tried suicide too [since sixth grade I'm 14 now in the 8th grade]} so I'm hopeing I get sick so I can stay home and play my little trick on the bastards at school. ok...*wipes eyes* I better stop before I start crying again...so anybody...help me?

I feel left out... cuz my friend gets to go see his best friend's (my friend too) girlfriend like 15 minutes ago and I didn't get told about this until like...40 minutes ago and my friend knew I was going to call his cell phone and he didn't even turn it on or just left it at home...

hi peeps! wazzup? check out my quizzes and my friends list who are all awsome. have fun with my stories and I'll cya'll later!