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December 4, 2009

MY LIFE IS RUINED!!!

Scared is just a term. nothing compares to this feeling of dread i feel whenever i walk into a room and see vicious glares of hate on my back as i walk, head down, to my seat. i can see when im not wanted here. i can see when im not welcome here. i hear the whispers as i sit down in my seat. i catch a little of what their saying. "I heard that rachel is dating a girl!" "Really?! She's gay?!" i put my head down on the desk, feeling the coolness against my cheek. i feel a presense in front of me and look up, seeing my ex, Jared in front of me. my sadness turns into a glare, making him chuckle. Jared was one of the people who started the rumor. the other ones were my best friends, Courtney and Jared's twin, Josh. "what?!" i hissed, making it easy to notice how much i dislike him. He smirked. "I dont even understand why youre so upset about the rumor. i mean, if its not true, it doesnt need to bother you." i glared harder at him. "Well, im sorry, but my two best friends hate me now, Jared! i dont need your imput." after that, i didnt listen and was happy when the bell finally rang, letting me get out of the suffering space in the small classroom. i passed by courtney and put my head down. she didnt notice me. i was almost there. almost to my locker, when my books were slammed to the floor and someone pushed me down to the ground. i looked up at myfriend as he looked hauntingly down at me. "HA! YOURE SO GAY!" he yelled, making sure almost everyone heard. i felt the tears well up in my eyes as everyone laughed meanly at me. i hurried to my locker, picking everything off of the ground first. once i opened it, i was immediatly shoved into it, banging my head on the low overhang of the metal, blacking out for a few seconds. when i regained conciousness, i let the welling tears fall down onto my burning cheeks. unknown to me, josh was watching in the distance and saw me crying. he walked over to me and hugged me, tightly, making me cry harder, this time into his chest. why would someone who spread a rumor about me, be so nice to me? i dont have an answer to that question, still. a girl walked up, a little on the chubby side with long blonde hair across her eye and an emo aura. i recognized her as josh's girlfriend. she pulled me back. "Were you just hugging my boyfriend?!" she snapped in my face. "yeah." i replied in monotone, wiping my tears. she glared. "i will kill you! i will beat you up!" and with that, she walked off, leaving me in a dazed state and thirty seconds to get to my 7th period. i grimaced. PE. yuck. i was late, of course. when we did exersize that acquired a partner, everyone ignored me and glared at me. i was stuck. i was hated. i was alive, unfortunately. i frowned when i was suddenly hit with a volleyball that smacked me in the face right by my nose, almost giving me a nosebleed. i broke down to the ground, holding back cries of pain and instead holding my throbbing nose. once again, i was relieved when the bell dinged and ran as fast as i could to maddi, the friend who always stands by me. she caught me and hugged me, agreeing to skip class again, and we grabbed liz, an almost insane girl who was part of our group. we went to the teachers lounge, where we always skipped class. liz read us some poems about depression and stuff. and spilled about what happened to each of us. turns out, all of us were having a bad day. maddi's boyfriend only liked her because he felt bad for her and liz's best friend told the guy she hates that she loved him, when truely, she hated his guts. after that, my friend alex handed me a rock. "To throw at the people who harrass you." He said, closing my hand around the thick, round rock. i smiled for the first time that day.
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NOTE: THAT WAS WHAT HAPPENED TODAY SO, YES, IT WAS A TRUE STORY THAT WAS JUST PUT INTO CREATIVE THINKING!

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