Comments on ladyofsorrows65's Journal

i`m scared of everything at the minute.
scared of trusting people, scared of being wrong, scared of getting hurt, scared of being weak, scared of being alone, scared of change and scared i`ll do something bad to someone else or myself.

the news i recieved today has left me absolutely gutted.
that`s the big reason i`m scared to trust him, which in turn has left me petrified to trust everyone else. Hence me telling people nothing because i cant trust them. Thennn they get pissed off cus i be "keeping things from them", then in turn makes me be alone.

The not-trusting-people one scares me the most. And the getting hurt part.
That whole "getting hurt" thing sounds over-exaggerated, but you haven`t got one fuckin clue unless you expierience it yourself. I dont know how many times I broke down in front of him today, not counting the times by myself.

I hate feeling weak; like feeling as if I want to crawl back to him. I hate myself for that. I really do.

So today I pronounced myself as an "ex-group member". aka, I`m basically not gonna hang around with my usual group of friends.
Or at least, thats what they claim to be. The last time I checked friends dont kiss my best friends ex [AMY] or go out with my ex [FERGIE]. They also wern`t manipulative bastards[MICHAEL]who are never wrong and havnt carried out a good deed in their spoiled lives [GEMMA].

So FUCK THEM ALL.