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November 5, 2008

The Most Beautiful Word in the World

As everyone in the world pretty much knows the USA is getting a new president and many people have been giveing themselves headaces over the worry of 'who should I vote for'. I was ignoreing the political problem but instead focusing on the headaces and eye problems I have had majority of my life. To describe what I have been liveing in I'll give you a simple example: try shakeing a paper infront of your face really fast and try to read it. Its like that for me but the entire world is shakeing. Though it isn't a 24/7 thing it happens alot in short bursts. Last Thursday though the shakeing lasted over three hours and I was forced to leave school.

Now this little shakeing problem isn't all of it. Recently my vision has been fadeing in and out, I've had black outs, problems with diseness, and my normal headaces are getting alot worse. So after being withdrawn from school last Thursday my mother took me to the eye doctor. He ran a few tests to see what was up and it was discovered that I had a minnor near sided eye problem that isn't even worth solveing with glasses. It was alspo discovered my little shakeing eye problem is called nistagmus (more then likely not spelled right). It isn't a eye problem at all but a nerve problem. The eye doctor gave my mother some numbers to call to make an appointment with a neroglogist and she did for today.

Before I actually went to the nerologist I was still stuck in class for awhile. My grades steadly dropped. Today I got my progress report for the six weeks and I find out I am failing all but two classes. These classes are classes you do nothing in and make As, I had Cs in those. Needless to say my mother was livided when I told her my grades were bad because of not makeing up tests that I misssed by being out Thursday and work that I hadnt been able to do in class do to my bursts of shakey vision.

So anyway we went to the nerologist and I told him all my symptoms (ie the headaces, light sensitiviety (cant walk out of a storewith out going blind for five minutes), and shakey vision.) The nerologist, Dr. Leder, then told me what I had was not nistagmus but actually migrane problems caused by blood vesels in my scalp. Then he told me the most beautiful thing in the world: its fixable. All the problems I have been haveing since childhood are fixable by one pill twice a day for the next month or two. He also told me my drastic change in personality since childhood was a product of this along with my insomnia. All of it fixable bysome pills.

I cried after we left.

Sometime next week I go in to have a MRI and a few other tests run to make sure Dr. Leder is abslutely right and there are no other problems. Until then I'm to start takeing my new medication and with any luck I'll finally be normal. No more walking out of the local Food Town holding onto my mother's purse because I'm blind. No more chances of getting into recks on the road because of the minnor vission black outs I recive after someone's brights flash into my eyes. No more missing school because I can't see strait. No more restless nights. No more headaces. I'm supposed to go back to being a happy, ceerful friendly girl who has the capablities to take a school picture and walk back to her class and take a test.

The most beautiful word in the world is fixable. No two ways around it.

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