punk.loves.mcr.goth21's Journal

My arm hurts like a fucking bitch from that IV ):  At least that stuff they gave me is like... making my stomach not so bad.
So, rofl, the cute guy that rolled me into X-Ray was like
"So we were looking at the samples, and hey, you're not pregnant!"
and I was like, "Well... that's good." rofl.
Then I had to take my bra off for the X-Rays.
ugh. Die much.

 

hospitals are rather embarrassing. uhm... I didnt get home until noon, I got there around 7:50 ish. ugh. The sick is like... kinda coming back. ):
I cant eat anything ):
I can only have fluids and such. ugh.
uhh. (:
 love you. <3 I promise. Really. My weekend has not been the best, I couldnt even text people, and when I talked i got sick. so. <3 I still love you, I promise.

we could perfect one last night.

Kay so uhm. I'm turning sixteen on tuesday. (April Fools :D)
:D
write me good stories. cute ones. like ones with Ryan and Max. :D orrr Ryan and Brendon. orrr..... Frankie anduh....Rofl I dont know. William Beckett and anyone. I dont really care.
But I want story presents ):
And I think the best one willlll.... I dont know. Think of your own prize if you win. Rofl.
If anyone even writes me something. ):


Something's up with my messages. Resend requests<3 Sorry. ):

Im watching Eragon rofl. uhm... yeah. <3

Wah. Since everyone is pretty much gone D: I might be one of the few left. Bleh. But still.
What really sucks is I joined Mibba, and it's harder to use than Quizilla. Cause Quizilla is actually really, really easy to use. But nooo. Codes are mde with something called BBcode, where Italics would be [i] word [/i]

Anyway. My name on Mibba is Hey There Shannon
Lolz. You hate that, dont you bby. :D

This was like, my place to write, you know? Jessita's gone... Bree was the first to go. Maria. Kayla. Mercedes is going. They're going to eventually get me too, guys... my account will most likely be deleted, along with my stories. I dont have enough space on my computer for it all. Things James has written will be gone. Kat and I, my whole cahnge into being a better writer. I feel like crying, writing is my life and to lose all of this is heart-wrenching. I dont have another site besides DeviantArt and thats not really even worth it. It wont be long until the person with a certain username (message me, I'm too afraid to even type it and have it published) gets me. Everything I've written will be gone. Over two years of my life will be gone, and James. Jamie will be gone. It doesnt even seem like writing is worth it anymore.

Awh, the play was grand! Everyone cheered when me, Pat, or Joe came on stage. Maybe other people, but me and Joe were the best as the only Russians<3 :]
hahah grand duchess olga katrina :] well, ex-grand duchess, y'know? Damn communists.
:]
Lol im just so happyyy.
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet.
I have this mad obsession with Escape The Fate now. Im not even kidding. <3 Lol srslyyyy...
Omg my dress for the play was hideous. Like no lie.
"Its not pink."
"Candace, its a flaming pink."
"That dress is the color ugly."
Lolololl :] i love Candace<3
If my mother forgets about my punishment, i might be able to 'stay over' Candace's house and shell take me to see Chiodos at Rams Head! fuck yeahhh. I love Baltimore, I love Chiodos, and they're gonna be at the mall before that, for a signing!
ohhh i could die.
:]

MMmm what else can I talk about?
Oh. Haha.
Its rly not funny but it kinda is now.
So like, I have this little sort of coughcrushcough on my guy friend Patrick, yah? Kay, so when the play was going on.
Wait, I have to tell you the casts were split up, me and Pat were Saturday, this was Friday.
Okay. So i like, kissed him really quick, and he was like wtf for a few seconds, and then we kissed real fast again, then were like fullmaking out and then I went backstage to get the fck away from him, and i was like shaking from happy [completely forgetting I had you, Lex but ilyyyyy]
And then i talked to Candace and Cierra bout it, then Patrick talked to Candace, and then he was like, "I cant like you like that... I uh... like..."
and I was like, "Liz more?"
and hes likes "yeah, I like Liz more."
Psht, then he kept going on about us still being friends, and I wasnt paying attention cause of my god get me out of here.
But anywhore, Cierra and Candace think its wrong fo him to be alllll like KISSY oh, I dun like you. Psht. He didnt ahve to be like, oh yeah i totally like liz more.
shes a hobag :| and obnoxious. whateverrr.

rawr.
...IM all sick and sore from the cast party last night.
People should ask me for stories, i really have a block with my own ideas.<3

xxShannon<3

First thing: Abortion.
Kay. No one reads this anyways. I was just thinking in class the other day.
Natural Rights.
Right to live, right to speak, rght to own property, etc, etc.
Natural rights are given at birth. Not conception. Birth.
Technically, being in a womb is not birth. You havent caused a mother extreme pain yet, you arent born.
No Natural Rights for you. Awhs :(
Yeah. Im being mean :]
Tis fun, someone should try it sometime.
Im really sick of everyone THROWING their opinions on Abortion. Really.
Its our choice to do it. It ain't illegal yet. Get the hell over it, its still our bodies.
The thing is, Im not trying to be mean. Im really not.
I believe in one thing, people believe in others. I get that. But when someone gets MAD for me making my own statement, its ridiculous. It's like religion.
I say I dont believe in God. People get really fucking mad at me.
But they can try to throw Christianity in my face, or whatever religion. I wasnt singling Christians out, its just they do it more.
I was Baptized Roman-Catholic. S'ok. I know the bible. Rawr.
Srsly?
If you loveeee God so much, go marry him. AKA, Become a nun and leave me the hell alone about it :]

 

Mkay. That small rant thing is over. uhm. School.
Not much to say.
A Days.
Government [[Im in the stupid class]]
Espanol DOS. :]
Photo/Dig, 3rd Lunch, Photo/Dig.
Gym. Blegh.
B Days.
Algebra 2.
Biology.
Creative Writing, Second Lunch, Creative Writing.
English 10.
My favorite classes?
English 10 and...yeah. English 10.
I hate everything else. It kills me.
Creative Writing sucks. THE TEACHER IS A NAZI.
I swear to you. She is. I hate her. I pop my gum when her back is turned :]
She wrote a model journal, "Reasons Why I never Pop My Gum In Class..."
:]
Chyahhh.

Ohohooh. And love:]
I asked Patrick out. bah. We kinda just dropped it. I think we're too good of friends for that shizz.
bahaha. Moose just broke up with Jessi. Im loving that lipring, it was fun to kiss.
But after dating Dan twice and fucking all that up, Im not sure dating Moose again would be okay. Hm.
I shall ask Amanda Marie that.
OHH. You should ALL love Amanda Marie Jones [[AJ]], Candace, and Elena.
They're the reasons I write, and have continued to do so for a year or so hahhaa.<3
Uhma.
Theres this kid.
Blue eyes.
Black hair.
The left side of his lip pierced.
I love the way he says 'fuck.'
Yes. Yes I do :]
YETTT. Theres this OTHER black haired CHILD that I love with a lip piercing, and, of course, I dont have him. You know why?
No, I dont either :]
He makes fun of me for speaking spanish though :[
Pantalones. :]<3
Psht.
My arm kills from SOMETHING. Bahhhhh.
<3
Peace.

 

The Academy Is. =]

Loves<3
Uhma. Im back! Go me!!!
No more boring Massachusetts!!!
Writing!!
INTERNET!
*sexes computer*
*and kayla*
Bah. she was the only one that texted me while I was away, besides Sam Freakin Beatty.
And I talked to Jessita some too =]
<33
uhmz.
Hmph.
I put out one leslash that I have written
I'm typing up the next four right now.

My mom's pissin me off though, demanding I ask Alex what this one sentence means in spanish.
Like wtf?
What do I care if she gets pissed and just uses a translator? Jesus Christ. I fucking told her to do that in th first place.
*headdesk*
Im ready to see my friends, but Im not ready to go back to school.

 

Oh. uhm.
ILOVEALEXKAYLAJUSTINCOOPERBERRIEJESSITABREEANDWILLIAMBECKETT.
=]
Im just that bored.
Oh!!!! And I sprained my ankle for the..*counts* My left side, this is lucky number... ew 13. Bah.
*headdesk*
So feel bad for me =]




Peace<3
x

See? Love Angels And Airwaves with me. They kick ass and totally deserve such love =]
Along with The Academy Is...
=]
Bah.
So, Im gone for 10 days.
Being.... degraded and such in Massachusetts with...irky family.
Yesh.
Shho....leave me nice things to talk about?
:(
If youre important (alexcooperberriebreekaylajessita)(subtle) Then Ill reply to you on my celly =]
Bahaha.
Yeah.
Im that smooth.
rawrs<33
NICE THINGS.
Not hatemail.
..As much as i enjoy hatemail, HATE is not the thing I wanna come back to from this punishment.
=[ no writing.
Ill have to sneak my cell around like Im in school, bitches.
yesh.
sucks so hardcore.
My heads hurting again.
baaha.
Pantalones.
XD

D:

I wanna stay home. *cries*

Uhma.
This makes me sad.
Okay, uhm....
For the first time, Im stuck.
Like.
Not just stuck, but like 'Holy shit what the fuck am I going to do?' kind of stuck.
And its sad, it really is.
Cause my Mikey Way story is loved.
(You people are weird)
(But ily <3)
And I have no idea how to even get around things, or something.
I mean.... for a writer, I have a pretty bad imagination.
=[
Okay.
Im getting more upset by this.
Fuck.
So... it might be a while for updates?
And the ending is definately not near.
Unless i decide to kill them all.
>=]



go sex
slashymcslashslash
and
narcoticlullaby


<333

oh and by the way...
Im leaving from the 10th to the 20th... so nthing in that span...
althought i can read messages and reply and shizz
on my celly.
yeah.
so.
its gonna suck.
...my family.
grawr.

I wanna dance with somebody.
I wanna write.
I wanna get drunk.
I wanna hit someone.
I wanna smoke.
I hate the song 'Hey There, Delilah'.
I hate you.
I hate the song 'Your Guardian Angel'. (Not for long...)

I want someone to love me. I want to be loved. I want to get into something, and not be heartbroken. Heart? Broken? Enough. I want to get smashed. I want to hit someone, hard. I want to kill something, I want to smoke.
I want, I want, I want.
Me, Me, Me.
I hate myself, and I hate all this.
Fuck the world, fuck it all. Burn them alive and giggle when they scream.
I want to be loved. Why is that always so much to ask?
I think I deserve it by now. Everything life has thrown at me in a span of FIFTEEN MOTHER FUCKING YEARS. You would think Fate owes me a little somethin' somethin'.
I want. I want to die. I want to live. I want to succeed. I want to do this. I want to stop.
I want to cry. I feel like crying.
I want you all to love me. i want you all to leave me alone. I want to stop feeling like that. I want someone to hurt me. I want life to be challenging. I want life to be easy.
I need someone to care about me.
I need to sleep.
I neep to drink.
I need to smoke.
I need to...scream. I need to let it all out. I need to stab my pillows, or even laugh at something.
I want to laugh.
I want to smile.
I want everything.
I want you.
Fuck you.
I need you.
Fuck this.
Screw you, screw all this, fuck yourself.

And goodnight.

They're off.
Yes, they are!
Like omgeez. They were bothering me when even I wanted to read some of my old stuff. Eh.
So. No more passwords. EXCEPT
EXCEPT
EXCEPT
In my new leslash! 100, THERE ARE PASSWORDS.
of course, they're there cause I want people to read the rules first =]
They'r enot hard to find.
 Honestly. The first thing in the folder.

Okay, the REQUESTS people have made.
No, bbies, i have not forgotten haha.
But, I might knock out 2 birds with 1 stone.
Meaning, ill hit a request, and put it as a leslash!100
MEANING the story will be in two folders. Okay?
Okay.

Uhhhm. Btw.
This 'war'.
Emos/Goths vs. Preps.
Pretty gay.
Like, really gay.
Honestly. I do stuff for fun. Fuck off, you guys. I dont care about what you think about what me and kristin are doing.
This is just super childish. Spewing insults at us does nothing. It only encourages others to do so.
If you hadnt started all these stupid immature comments, nothing would be wrong.
sit there and simmer in your own misery.
get a boyfriend.
get a life.
i dont care.
stop ruining it for everyone else.


im happy again. =]

ugh. Yeah. Withdrawal. You dont need to know of what ;]
Peace.
xShannon

Just remember kiddies, negative attention is still attention.
And I am just IN LOVE with attention. I dont get much negative attention. It makes me happy when I do! It really honestly does! That means someone is NOT in love with my writing and they're NOT in love with my veiws!
THEYRE OUT OF THE LOOP
THEYRE UNIQUE.
THANK YOU JESUS. SOMEONE DOESNT LIKE ME.
God, I love hate mail. I just really do. I love replying to it, its the best ever.
<3
Makes me so happy! I just got some degrading message, and that's why I've decided to make a journal. Yes, yes, I know, Immature, but the negativity!!
Im telling you guys, send me more hatemail. Its great.
I honestly put it up on my walls next to my Panic! At The Disco/From First To Last/My Chem/Linkin Park posters.
I do. Scouts honor. Mhhhmmm. I just love me some hate.
Honestly, I think too many people like me. Psht, Im getting so COCKY cause I know people like me.

Mmmmm. I want to call my significant other <3
There ARE better ways to spend my time!! I mean, who honestly has such a bad life tht they have to kill time by bashing me?
Bahahaah. I love it. I love you guys.
I really do.

 

Agh. And to those who really DO love me. Thank you. It makes me very happy inside to know people like my writing and such <3

mmmm. http://ginxandxkerosene.deviantart.com
do itttt. <33

Mhhhhmmmm. Wasted my time writing this! I couldve been writing about boys fucking eachother!

>=]

Peace.

Mhm. It happens <3

Anywayz. Hah. I totally forgot what I was going to type. Sugar high<3
ughhhhh. uhmmm.
yeah. =] I realized, i really hate Paramore =]
and hellogoodbye
and halifax
and underoath
and AND AND AND AND AND I FREAKING HATEHATEHATE hawthorne heights.
sue me.
i dont care. i hate them. i cannot stand it. it makes me want to go cut myself.
because they lack talent so much it makes my heart ache.
HOWS THAT FOR EMO YOU fcknglittlefckrs....
i hate bands like that. everyone loves them, but ALL OF THEIR SONGS ARE THE SAME.

and I just hate paramore cause 1.) i dont like the music and 2.) im super jealous of hayley and her sexiness/hair. cause i srsly like her hair ^^

uhhh. hm. im typin so fast lawlz. you know you're bored when you type nonsense rly fast. heh. wow. im kinda bored ^^;
actually really bored. sugar highhhh kinda sucks.

 

dootdootdootttttt. mhhhmmmm.
>=] dont be fooled by the rocks that i got, im still, im still jenny from the block. used to have a little, now i have alot. everywhere i go, i know where i came from!
then do they say southside bronx or something?
i dont care.
i really dont =] im just rockin out to the music in my head.
thats the best kind, really <3

 

duuude im so jealous of rich people.
i want another damn ipod =[
and some new clothes.
this is a new feeling for me! actually WANTING things! thats my sister's thing, ya know? shes the prep that always wants to buy something, and im the emokid in teh corner thats really just happy she has something to cover her body.
but now...i want clothes and such...i think im getting sick of just sitting back and leting my sister get everything she wants.
when i DO want something, my 'rents are like. UH NO. i honestly dont find that fair. the last big thing i asked for was a bass and my mom's boyfriend got it for me. i didnt even really ask for it! i just wanted one... and i didnt even talk about it much. i was like 'yeah, a bass would be cool'
BAM i had one.
dude i think the last thing my mom gave me was....she bought me an iced coffee at mickey d's. which was like, 3 months ago.
my dad bought me a green tea the other day. he doesnt really count.
im a daddy's girl ^^

haha. boys [and you know who im talking to] you'd better watch outtt. i have a black army guy [mothers boyfriend] and a freaky black guy who likes rock more than me [my father]. and they'll both kill you if you so much as try to kiss me =]

wtf was my purpose here?!
sigh. i dont have one.

smoking. started again. stopping again. no good for me. ill wean off again. inhale every 2 drags like i quit last time.
ughhh. crashin at cierra's tomorrow.

hey, who likes deviantart like me?? ginxandxkerosene
it gets pretty bad when you're whoring yourself =[

uhhhh. the most expensive things i own:
Bass guitar [given by mommas bf]
Dolce & Gabbana sunglasses [given by mommas bf]

theres something wrong with that.
my sister wants a coach purse from him for her birthday.
i got a freaking CARD for my bday, and shes getting a damn coach purse.

where is the justice in the world for quiet kids like me?

=[


i am a camera whore and i enjoy it <3








Im a myspace type of girl <3


uhhh super cool low-tops =]


holy snap i took this pic with my legs spread o.O
p3rvs. haha.


Yes, I pwn your face =]


doing what Shannon does best <3 with my old hair... *sobs*



^^DeviantArt ID



oh, and i hope whoever reads this enjoys my leslash!100

^^;

peace <3

xShannon

Is that how you spell it? I believe it is. Well. yeah. I've decided thattt, after that Barbie story thing, Ima stop writing for a while. Maybe i'll write a few one shots here and there, but I think I'm stopping. Unless a few certain people (coughjessbreecough) persuade me otherwise. But yeah. You guys just love me for the sex =] Like Candace. ugh. But I. Idk. Im home, sick.