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January 10, 2009

It's over....?

Omg i am so upset. There is a crap load of drama going on in my School and i'm really getting sick of all of it!!! It's just too much for me. At the beginning of the school year everything was great and all in its place like it should be. Now everything that took so much time to make is falling apart so quick and it's really over whelming for me. I had a great group of best friends thati thought i would never lose and a boyfriend of eight months that told me we would never break up. I loved everything. Everything was perfect. A great boyfriend, tons of best friends, and i was really popular. Don't get me wrong though, I'm not one of those stuck up snobby popular people who care about nothing but them selves. Anyway, everyday he told me he loved me and that he would never ever even think about breaking up with me. I was in love with him too very much. All of his friends and all of my friends got along perfectly. Some of them were even dating. I was so close to that group of friends. Now, i'm no longer apart of it.

This is what happened:

Me and my bestfriend were inseperable, so i thought. We looked alike, think alike, sound alike, the whole nine yards. When i started dating my boyfriend i started getting jealous of her because they seemed to be really good friends. Really close friends. I didn't let it bother me though. Me and him had been through ALOT. Well to make a long story short, one day i was at lunch and his friend was telling this other guy who i had dated something about heath and my best friend beth. I asked him and he told me that it was just a rumor, but it was that heath was going to break up with me for her. I didn't believe it at first because he told me he would never do that and that he loved me too much to ever do that. And beth told me that she didn't even like him. So i believed it all until my friend nykki comes up to me after spanish and said that she actually witnessed him saying that he wanted to break up with me for beth because she was prettier and more fun. I cried for 2 days straight non stop. so after nykki told me that i found heath and he told me it wasn't true. Beth told me she swore she would never stab me in the back like that and that she didn't like him at all. so guees what happens? the next day out of no where she suddenly likes him and he suddenly stops talking to me. he is avoiding me. So i am freaking out. i was terribly upset about all of this. the only friend i had was nykki. nobody else who i thought was my friend actually took me seriously. it hurt alot. so that night i called him an he said he did like her but that he loved me too and that he didn't know who to choose. he asked me not to see anyone else and to always be there for him. He asked me wat i wanted for Christmas and everything, i already got him and aeropostale hoodie and some really expensive cologne. he cheated on me the next day with her and gave her my christmas present while we were technically still going out. me and beth hate eachother now, it's all because of some dumb ass guy. A perfect friendship, torn to unmeandable pieces.

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