I've recently decided, for me anyways that nothings ever okay. Somethings always going to go on.
Im far below content right now. I need reasurence that im not getting from anyone. I feel like going on a run. I just have too much going on. I want to play some guitar, but i dont have my guitar. I wanna go do some improv, that way i can pretend to be someone else. But of coarse, tomorrow in class were watching a movie instead of acting.
I went and saw Narnia with my family last night. I fel too old. Once again proving how fast im growing up. Right before hand my mother and I went out to dinner.
And why on earth did i feel so old? Besides all my thoughts right now.
Because i was in heels. A stupid and absurd reason. But i just felt so old, like my mom. She where's heels everywhere.
My best friend hasnt been telling me stuff lately... Im afraid of loosing her. Considering i just told two of my bestfriends i didnt want to be there friends anymore. Im trying to hold onto everyone i can right now.
Im feeling horrible for other peoples problems. Im putting myself in there shoes, it makes me cry. I wouldnt be able to go through that.
I also feel bad for this guy that likes me, i really just want to be friends, but he doesnt really understand that.
I dont know what im going to title this.
I think im staying the night at my sisters tonight.
I have an award ceremony after school tomorrow. For whatever im winning.
Ew.
I got my hair cut yesterday. I just got my layers fixed. I didnt feel like chopping it all off like planned. Its still really long, But its perfect for this summer that im trying to make as amazing as possible.
Last week i felt like putting a bullet in my head. I didnt. but nobody tried and stopped me. One reason of my stress.
i feel like writing so much. But i know my parents are gonna be home soon. And knowing this is displayed on the TV and i have chores. Im gonna stop.
I'll try and write again tomorrow.
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