tobelieveinlove's Journal

hey!! omg god i have missed everyone so much i am soooo sorry my dad dug up the damn phone line and telstra (for those of you who live in australia you will understand) wuldnt come and fix it for... i think its on the forth week now... anyways!!! i am sooooooo sorry i havent updated but my net resoucres have been sum what confuddled... so i shal update as much as i can now that i have the net!! please don't kill me i am sooo sorry and i have to catch up on all ur wonderful pplz stpries -.-' its gonna take 4 eva but i will do it!!! tata!!!

ok, i personally don't really believe the stupid magazine article but i need to know for sure. is the use breaking up? because a couple of magazines says they are, and then me n my friend were like crying in DT coz we were all sad, but they cant break up coz their going on tour!.. i think.. i dunno, so i am turning to my smart quizilla friends... please tell me!!!! - ty

hello! =D um... yeh ok well i am seriously considering dropping out of school. I'm in year 11 my subjects are: drama, design and technology, textiles and design, MUSIC!, english advanced, english extension...oh yeh and we have to do religon coz i go to a catholic school...anyways...I don't feel like i am getting anything out of any of those subjects. literally i have not learnt anything all year! Maybe its coz i chose the "easy creative" subjects but seriously its really annoying me. And then i get thinking. Why am i wasting my time going to school when i know what i want to do?? and if i leave now i'll do the exact same thing as if i left after finishing school?..guess i better tell you what i want to do ay? well i'm in band and i know only half of the band (i.e me and my best friend nat) are serious about the band, so that means we'll end up having to find another half of a band (hehehe) but still, i seriously can't see myself doing anything else. there is no way i am getting a desk job, teaching sux, i hate retail (i work at a supermarket at the moment and want to slap the customers most of the time *shakes fist at stupid old men who scream at me about potatos*)... anyways really don't no what to do. If i leave i can do a few TAFE courses in music and i can get like a job for money and what not at like a retail thingy. but then i got thinking (thinking overload :P)...just what if the band doesn't make it? ok see i am prepared to like kill myself to see the band make it because the way i see it i'm only living on this earth once (sorry i'm atheas i don't believe in god or reincarnation or wateva..no offense to anyone...just my opinions) and thats what i want to do so i'll work my arse off to get there.. but what if it doesn't make it? then i'll have no education sort of thing... but then i hate school, i cant stand going, and i'll do the same thing if i left now as i would if i finished school... oh god help me, what should i do???... and then i have to tell my parents i'm dropping out.. that will be lik the biggest screaming contest ever!!!... anyways i really need your help and opions, to drop or not to drop???? ty - jess

well i'm bored so i thought i wuld just write about my day and PAIN.. ok well firstly we were watching mcr on the computer(me and my friend natchoolie) and gerard did that action you know where he sticks his arm out in front of him??? anyways! i decided to copy him and did it really fast and whack bang straight into the boxy computer thing.. ow my arm.. but you know i never learn my lesson...so at the swimming carnival today we were dancing and w decided to copy Mikey (has anyone ever noticed how weird he stands? o.O)... anyways so we were trying to get our feet to do that weird thing mikey does and my foot slipt and i fell down the stairs and hit nmy head.. hit hurt like... sumthing that hurts alot... o.O.. hehehe and then we had black face paint coz we "made our own house colour" and i did that thing frank does (you know with the crosses over his eyes) and then i had to catch the train home by mysef with it on and it was funny coz everyone was staring at me, lol on the train i was standing up and there was heaps of ppl and it was funny coz they stood on the other sidwe ofthe carriage giving me weird looks it was hilarious!!!!... hmm... anyways.. the lesson that i haven got threw my head yet coz i know i will copy mcr again is that copying mcr is painful.. hehe but they're so hot!!!... :D catch you later!!! - jess... p.s: sprry my stories havent been updated for ages, but inspiration is lost and i've been busy and sine going back to school my mode has changed to "i so cant be bothered" and yeh.... MIKEY!!! =D

hello!!!!, ok heres the thing. I am in a band with my 2 friends (natalie and veronica(if u have read my stories u will see them pop up occasionally) ANYWAYS we have an opportunity to get a set in this festival thing in...i'm not sure how long but pretty soon, and one in october + others...not the point...actually it is...ok i'll shut up...none the less i play bass + sing, veronica is guitarist, nat is guitarist...we are drumless, see veronica has been temporarily playing the drums (i swear she can play anything she picks up..eww wrong lol moving on) but she really wants to play the guitar since thats her main instrument and she freaking rocks at it...so we need a drummer...no-one in our music class can drum (or drum very well) so we are in search for a drummer... this is like a great opportunity!!! seriously!!! so if you drum (or know someone who can who is looking to join a serious band, not just muck round) then please contact me if you don't want to be nigel or something and have half a band like us, say your friend plays bass or sings, then i don't mind giving up my bass or singing rights (as long as i can back up sing hehehe) and they can join too...but please we're desperate!!! ok so you obviously need to live in Sydney Australia because that is our current location, please contact me, we are really flexable, our genre is not like centered because we are all into different styles of rock, so its not all screamo, not all hard rock, or mainstream or whatever genre you like, and we like playing different types so you'll be assured to get ur favourite song performed, this is serious so if you want to join message me now!!! ciao and thank you!!!! p.s: guys and girls welcomed, it wuld be cool to have guys coz then rabid fan girls can drool at ur feet hehehe, but girls are cool too even 'ITS' are fine, no discrimination here!!!

alrite so heres the thing: I'm in band yeh? and we have a gig coming up and one song we are doing is all the small things (blink 182 ppl) anyways if you know the songs theres an instrumental breaky thing after the second chorus and well we want to make our performance interesting and our brains stopped functioning at birth so we're not sure what we could do... does any body have any ideas because we want it to be interesting and cool and not just stand there playing! anyways plz plz plz help thhanx !!! Jess

ok well coz i'm really cool i found this out, ok i was on my 10 minute break at work n like always i was going through every magazine to see if they had anything about mcr in there, AND i found a mag that had mcr on the front as well as a 4 page articl (omg gerard n frank r so hot!) anyways so this is like basically wat it said: "The thing about Bert is he likes to joke, hes a joker. he makes up a lot of stuff i read that thing and its not true..." gearard quote. The thing refers to the mtv article that says bert said that he was no longer on speaking terms with Gerard. Even though bert confirmed he said that gerard says that its not true. ok so i cant be bothered typing out thee next quote but Gerard says thats its a media thing, they are forming afued in their little articles to get publicity and bring the bands down, gerard says that if they were havinga fight they would just call each other on the fone and fix it, they aren't not talking Bert is a joker and he was having a laugh at the media because they spiral everything out of propersion. Ok so how good am i, i just translated a really confusing article into that!!! omg i luv MCR so much this is killing me that i live in australia and no bands really ever come out here, but dnt worry when my band makes it we shall tour australia as much as we do every where else! and yes my band will make it coz i believe it can and i'm going to work my arse off to get there... ok well thats not the point... Gerard and Bert ARE talking its just a joke that they aren't so we can all breath relief now!!!! i'd like to thank blunt magazine for putting me at ease! luv u all -jess p.s: Does any body know why my bass has a battery in the back of it???

yes as you can gues i am bored ans sad...i feel bad for gerard because him and Bert aren't friends any more and its really sad coz they use to be really close (no they are not fuking gay!) and yeh... and now i'm bored and i keep coming up with all these story ideas, but then its annoying me coz i wan to finish the stories i've started first, but then i can't think of anything... o-0 o well life goes on... and yeh... o my stoopid amp is screwed. Ok i bought a new amp about.. wow i can't remember when like 2 months ago... no wait... i can't remember less than that i think and when ever i try to practise it goes all weird an distorted and you can't change the volume or anything, so its really annoying me because my band (death by popsicle) we hava gig coming up so i sorta need to practise but now i can't coz my stoopid amp... on the plus side theres areally hot guy who workds at the place i bought the amp from mwahahaha... and yeh... oh yeh i have a question for all bass players or guitarists out there... WHY THE HELL DOES MY BASS HAVE A BATTERY IN THE BACK OF IT? i didn't even realise until we were practising at my friends house in her muic studio and her dad came down and he was having a go of my bass and then he turned it over and opened this thing and what the hell there was a battery there? and he doesn't know why its there, and i dnt no why its there and i dnt want to ask the hot guitar shop guy why its there in case its obvious and i sound stupid xP lol anyways i shall be going and continue writing my stories and yeh... cya!!! -jess

hey, my name is Jess! I have just started writing my own story about MCR and becoming famous and stuff i think its called "a dream od fame" please please please check it out! and tell me what you think and give me a rating =D If you hven't guessed i luv gerard way, so the story obviously incorporats him, but hopefully if that goes well there will be way more stories with other peoples, so i command you to read, READ LIKE THERES NO TOMORROW !!!! AND YEH.... SO LONG AND GOOODNIIIIIIIIIIGHHHHHT =D