x-MiserablyYours-x's Journal

i went to chris' house last night and on the way back to my house, we pulled into a parking lot and were making out in his car when he tried to unhook my bra. i told him that it hooked in the front, but he still couldnt get it. after about 10 minutes, he got it open but he couldnt get it back together!! he went into a panic ("If your parents see this, we're dead!") but i was laughing my ass off!!!! i had to stand in my driveway with my shirt almost off to get it back together. we went inside and watched Jaws: The Revenge until midnight, then he had to go home. I CANT STOP LAUGHING!!! last night was the funniest, most awkward thing that has ever happened to me!!!!!!

i finally figured out what im at on the bases. i had a long, revealing talk with my cousin and she said, "You were at 2nd and went to steal 3rd, but you got caught and had to go back to 2nd. So you're at shortstop!"

I don't really get it, but thats okay. ^_~
At least I can say exactly where im at now. But I'm sure that when Chris gets back from Europe, I'm gonna be outta the goddamn ballpark. XD

Chris left for Europe today. I'm excited for him and all, but I won't see him for another 3 weeks. Ugh. I can't even TALK to him for the first 2 1/2! He'll be in Europe for 2 1/2 weeks, then I'll be leaving the day after he gets back to the states (I'll be in Georgia for a couple days.) At least we'll be able to talk on the phone for a week or so.

Blech. I need comfort food.

let's say i have this friend who was at her bf's house last night. let's also say that they were making out on his bed when he puts his hand "down there", but he didn't actually touch her skin; he just sorta did all that sort of stuff through her jeans.

would that still be considered getting to 3rd??? my friend is really confused and desperately needs help!!


if you havent figured it out yet, I'M the "friend"

My bf, Chris, came over today and we walked to the park by my neighborhood and we went into one of those tunnel-like things and we were making out when he grabbed my chest and I LOVED IT!!!!! XD I was really horny today.

I won "Underclassmen Most Likely To Be Paddled"!!!
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We're voting for band awards and the categories are:

Least Unattractive
Most Valuable Playa'
Underclassmen Most Likely To Be Paddled
Most Likely To Be A Band Director
Tabeen Frown Best Friends Award
Most Humorous
Least Boring
Most Likely To Become Fred
Best Dressed
Least Likely To Stop Talking
Most Notorious Band Defect
Rookie Of The Year
Miss And Mister Congeniality
Chad Fason Outstanding Marching Award
Cutest Couple


I'm up for Underclassmen Most Likely To Be Paddled, Least Boring, Least Likely To Stop Talking, and Chris and I are up for Cutest Couple! Some smartasses are putting "Sam & Delilah" (my other half) as Cutest Couple, which is pretty funny.



Gawd, I'm the biggest nerd on earth... and I love it!! XD

We were at assembly yesterday, and I was messing around with Biggs. She wanted to see my wristband (which hides my scars), but I wouldn't let her. She fuckin' tore it off of my arm, exposing my gashes. Today, none of my friends would look at me; only Chris would speak to me, but only because he had no idea what had happened.
I told Chris after school today that I had been cutting for the past year or so, but that I had stopped for a couple months (which is true). He is the only support I have right now. I didn't expect everyone to abandon me like this. I had the strongest urge to cut tonight; "If I could just replace my emotional pain with physical..." I managed to make myself throw away my razor, though.
I'm just so ashamed at what I've become. I've definetely hit bottom, but could I still bounce back? I really need some help with this. Support would really be a life-saver right now....

would u people stop it with the invites to cyber?! it's driving me frickin' CRAZY!! not everyone out there is as horny as you might think they are!!!

im glad that chris is on so many antibiotics, cuz i dont want him to get as sick as i am. my mom keeps insisting that i have mono, but i just have a sore throat + fever + missing voice.
i asked chris what he would think if i had a crush on a girl, and he just sort of went, "Oh. Um... I wouldn't have a problem with it, as long as you don't cheat on me."
he wouldnt stop saying (over the phone) "I wanna make out with you." i was red-faced and giggly [sp?] for about an hour, but then he fell asleep while we were talking (hahaha).

By the way, I love you Chris! *mwah*

i just told my best friend Biggs that i was bi (maybe lesbian) and she admitted that she was bicurious. i feel so much better now! my heart's beating really really fast, but at least i know that im not the only one i know who isnt afraid to come out.

I'm still not sure on what i should tell my bf, Chris. Should he know too, or is it okay for me to just keep it between me and Biggs? Still need help!

Remember: You can always IM me on my AIM screen name XMiSeRABlYYOuRSx

i've been thinking about it a lot lately, and i actually might be a lesbian. this is insane! i don't really see guys as hott as i used to, but i have a boyfriend! i've always been turned on at the thought of a hott girl, but guys just don't seem as attractive as they used to be. i love my boyfriend and all, but i'm not sure if i should come out this soon or just keep it secret. please message me! i really need advice on this. u could IM me on XMiSeRABlYYOuRSx. im so upset by all this!!

CHRIS ASKED ME OUT!!!!! after two weeks of waiting, he finally asked me!!!!! we were in the band room after school yesterday, and he kept saying "Hey, can I ask you something?" and he would tell me corny/horny jokes. ^_^ well, right before i had to leave he asked me [again] "Hey, can I ask you something?" "(Sighs) Fine. Shoot." "Would you go out with me?" *heart stops* O_o "Uh, well, um ... that is, uh ... yeah, okay." ah, well. at least i've got a date this friday!! ^_~ oops, gotta go. my mom's drunk as hell. gotta go mop her off the kitchen floor.... again..... >_

okay, my b-day was really 2 days ago [March 8th, for those of u who cant count] and i was grounded!!! so i didnt get to post. but im posting now! so it all evens out!! the day AFTER my b-day, though, (yesterday) these guys in my band class (you: ahh! geek! RUN!!) pulled the chair out from under me and i fell right smack on mt butt and it HURT like heck but it was still pretty funny. but i was PMSing, so i got upset about it BUT NOW ITS FUNNY!!!!!!

I almost told my guy friend that I'm bi, but I was afraid that he would tell all of my girl (space) friends, so I chickened out. He kept on guessing what it was and I ended up with telling him that I used to be bi, that I'm still a virgin (for the most part), that I don't have any STDs, I drink too much, and that I gave a guy a lapdance once (drunk). This sucks. I'm just glad that he didn't say anything about my cutting. I can't lie to my friends --just my parents-- and I don't want them fussing over me like I know they would if they ever found out. Grrr... I'm in trouble.

I'm in love with a guy (who I've known since 6th grade) and he calls me fat and ugly on a daily basis. Etrange, non? He and my BGF are always ganging up on me and messing with me. ("Hey ugly!" *i turn my head* "Ha! It worked!") I know that they're kidding around, but it's still kinda fuck'd up. Oh, and I think that my best friend might be a lesbo. No joke. We always act all horny with each other (just for kicks) and lately I think she's been serious about it. I know a lot of bi and gay people, but I don't want my best friend to be hitting on me!