xxsiinxx's Journal

mmkay. SO! My Chemical Romance people. I just wanna know what you think. So today I'm walking with my boyfriend and this one girl is like "you kinda look like that Gerard guy from MCR." So now I wanan know if u think he looks likna like Gerard cuz how cool would that be? ^^

MCR DUDE

MY BF

TELL ME WAT U THINK!!!

Well today was weird. I went shopping with my mom. And ended up getting nothing. And the whole day pretty much went like this:

mom: buy this
me: no
mom: how about those shoes?
me: no
mom: how about some earings? ill get u gold
me: no
mom: wanna go to McDonalds?
me: no
mom: go get yourself a shirt
me: no
mom: arent these pretty?
me: no


its so weird! 0_0 i was like totally out of it today. Usually Im like grabbing everything and my mom is tellin me no. gah I feel like shit and I dont even know whyyy. -_- *falls over and hits head on desk* gaaaaaaaa

HAPPY MARCH 8th EVERYONE!!!

Its International Women's Day. ^_^

Hey! I really need to win this contest. I only need 20 votes. I need people to rate my poem and that’s it! You don’t even have to read the poem! It will mean a lot to me. I will return the favor in any way u want if u do this for me. THANK YOU!!!

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Ok so I've gathered up some (not all) quotes from my friends that just deserve to be here! ^^


megan: WELL FUCK MY CAMERA!!!!!! ITS JUST FUCKING JEALOUS IT DOESNT LOOK AS PRETTY AS I FUCKING AM!!! BITCH!!!!!! I AM NOT THAT UGLY!!!!

Duy: isnt she adorable when shes angry? *holds a javelin out in front* back back! back i say!

Sari: well, I hate it cuz the nuns r always on my case.

me: if I went to your funeral, I'd laugh nick: if i went to your funeral, I'd steal your coffin

jackie: just remember that 1+1=2 and pi+pi=obesity

nichole: and he'll be excited to kno hes due in 8 months

mary: all hail to the great piggy bank *bows*

hewy: sandwich vacation! ^^ they actually give u recipes!

duy: brb the jew within me wants a bagel

beth: my computer is goin into spaz mode and running at speeds that even turtles would be ashamed of

nichole: ill always be there...im like Santa i no when ur awake and asleep. Muwahaha

karina: cupcake

megan: DAMN GIRL! You could get expelled for that and end up in juvi! LIKE ME! XD

karina: ok let me try my puppy eyes...is it working? me: no

stuart: did you just rub sushi on my head?!?!

stuart: michael jackson is innocent ... I'm not. =D

delease: What the fuck is wtf?!?!?!

evan: well the problem is that i have a huge sum of money stashed away. me: you sound like your with the mafia...

Delease:I feel like burning down a forest, which is bad because I work in a nature center.

Do you like to RPG?
You can come here and make a character, meet new friends, explore hidden secrets of the academy. Just click the above link icon and enter the world of Valencia.

What does it take to reach a position of power? Whatever it is Ludwig Valencia certainly has it as there seems to no longer be a force on earth that can stop him and his vicious army.


**PLOT**

It was over 120 years ago that the young man began his crusade and did what many viewed as impossible; achieved word domination. Now in the year 2327 most live in poverty and all in fear of their harsh ruler who hasn't seemed to age a day since he began this great war. All work to support him and his vast army and most have stopped asking questions about the public executions, the imprisonment of seemingly innocent citizens or the kidnapping a certain children from their homes. What the public fails to realize is that there is more trouble brewing than what meets the eye.

Valencia Academy, named obviously after the dictator who founded it, is a school that has only just opened its doors to children between the ages of 10 and 19. Despite it's infamous owner and headmaster the school is not known about by the pubic or even the children who attend it, that is, until they are snatched from their homes and forced to go to the academy.

Who are these children? They are the future. They are Ludwig's soon-to-be soldiers and associates who have been hand-picked for one reason or another. Some possess powers such as control over an element or the ability to transform into something or someone else. Others were chosen because of their amazing skills as warriors or obvious callings to be tomorrow's leaders. No matter what the reason for their attendance at Valencia Academy one thing is true for all students, not one of them is your "average" sort of kid.

At the school the students will be pushed to their limits. They will see the power inside of them identified and sculpted, but will they survive without contact with the outside world? Will they cope with being ripped away from their families who were either imprisoned or murdered after their kidnapping? Will they be able to handle the pressure of harsh, brutal teachers and teaching methods? Will they rise to meet or even surpass their overwhelmingly high expectations or will they fall?

Most importantly will they accept this? Will they allow themselves to be morphed to Ludwig’s liking or will they see that despite the promise of power, wealth, and prosperity that awaits them after graduating this is wrong? Will they bond together and make a stand? Because any hope left that the world will one day be free rests in the hands of the students at Valencia Academy.

eep! Tonight was so much fun!!! ^_^ Me and my friends went out to Pizza Hut. It was awesome! I think our waiter was high though. *_* his eyes were red and glazed and he sounded stoned. lol. Two of my friends decided to have an eating contest. Ye...I felt bad and sick just looking at them. One of them hate almost a WHOLE medium pizza plus breadsticks. We were like all begging her to put the food down or she might have a stroke or something. lol. But she lost. haha. Than we went to Toys R Us (right around the corner) and goofed off. Running around the Barbie section. I broke a rack of Disney clothes by accident :P hehe. Than we played with hula-hoop for like 10min and me and one of my friends mimicked star wars with baseball bats. heehe. And omg I'm never going to the video game section with her again. She would not leave! She pent like half an hour trying to play Guitar Hero. lol .She sucked and I couldn’t pull her away from it! ~_^ YAY! *yawn* I'm tired. Today was fun. Buh bye.

I took the SAT today!!! x_x It went really well except for one part. I was a dumb ass and for one math section I did like all the questions and I was so proud (lol)

but than I realized that I wrote all of them in the wrong section!!! And at the exact second, time was called to stop and begin the next section. I swear at that moment I was gonna have a panic attack. My hands were shaking uncontrollably as I quickly made an attempt to rewrite all my answers in the correct spaces. *sniff* I felt like crying. But I got through it. *sigh* At least its over with. =.=

Waaaa. Yesterday was SOOO fun. ^_^ Me and my friends went out together to Mr. Chan it was great!! ^_^ Lo Mein. mmmmmm. actually I've been eating Japanese noodles for 3 days now. o_o hehehe. than after we ate we decided to go to US Nails to meet my sisters boyfriends parents (we didn’t meet them) but I was like all paranoid cuz we weren’t supposed to go that far but heh. peer pressure. -_- who can resist is ey? lol. But they agreed to only go for 30min b4 I went loco on them. muahaha. lol

I'm sad. :( yes, I put my feelings there quite bluntly, but heck...that's how I'm feeling right now. Just...sad.

Today, one of my friends found out that one of his friends passed away from AIDS yesterday. He was almost in tears, and I didn't know what to say. I'm bad at consoling ppl...

And that made me think back on my grandmother who passed away two years ago. And how much I still miss her today. And it brought back the guilt again. Something I'll never forgive myself for. I never even told her that I loved her... -_- So maybe now she’s looking down at me from heaven and wondering if I really ever cared...

*sigh* if I could go back, I'd redo everything. I bet that girl would too. She'd have never had sex and stayed pure and would have lived and wouldn't have had to break the hearts of her family and friends. And I would have told my grandmother everything that I should have but didn't...and now cant...

and its stupid, b/c I know that even though I'm saying this now, I will keep making mistakes and so will everyone else, and than write these sad, pity journal entries saying how I wish I could just redo everything. -_-

Ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch!!! I smushed my finger in a drawr! >_< it hurts SOOO unbelievably bad. Ow. Ow. Ow. Ow. Ow. Haha. My hands r usually always cold naturally for some reason. That finger is getting hot…and purple. 0_0 OUCHEEEEEEYYYYY! >_

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

Getting Drunk tonight!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! *dances in circles* ^_^

This winter break didn't really feel like one. -_- I mean the first two days were pretty good but it all goes downhill from there. Kind of depressing really... now I'm not really looking forward to the traditional New Year party my family has every year. I just want to go back to school...with my friends...away from my family. I have almost no freedom here and its nothing but yelling and arguing. --__-- Its just dumb...and I cant wait for Tuesday when I have to go back to school...never thought I'd be so excited for school to reopen...

uuuuugh. --_--; I'm sick AGAIN. seriously this is getting annoying. This is going to be the fourth time I'm sick in 2 months! first bronchitis and i didn’t do anything about it so it turned into pneumonia than the doc gave me a flew shot which was bad cuz i was still sick so i got the flu and than b/c i have a weak immune system now I have a cold. :( gaah. i hope i die already. I’m sick of being sick and just today i lost consciousness from being sick so many times. :( And of all times honestly. I was gonna go hang out with my (sort of) boy friend and now I cant and he’s probably gonna be upset now cuz I’m always damn sick so he can never see me. Maybe I should tell him its ok if he stops liking me and moves on b/c hes not getting anywhere with me being sick all the time. *sniff*

Ok. So I have like NOTHING to do and I'm really really really x10000 bored so here’s the deal ppl! Send me a pic of you, your friends, w/e and tell me what you want me to do with it.

I have Photoshop and take some multimedia classes so I might be able to do some of the things you guys request.

Like change eye color or hair color or give u a tattoo or w/e!

But the pic must be sharp (not blurry). Thanx!!! ^_^

SHARE YOUR WIZDOME!!!

So, I'm currently dealing with a small problem. Ironically, its this guy who is actually 2x my size in height. lol. Besides the point (sort of). So he is in my math class and he is annoying beyond all reasons. No, that doesn’t even cover it. He’s like the king of annoying, the ruler of all things annoying and irritating. He’s a pain in the a$$. And every day when I come to class he takes my stuff (as a joke cuz the nut thinks he’s funny) and goes through my backpack and such. And when I try to get my paper back its ends up ripped because he’s huge and I'm tiny so...ye use your imagination. And when I try to get an attitude with him he tells me I have a stick up my ass and need to chill. And I cant yell at him cuz I get into more trouble than he already gets me into. And if I try to tell him t o stop seriously, that doesn’t really work with me. Cuz I cant keep a straight face so my glare ends up looking like this :)

So just today, I'm sitting there minding my business and he comes up to me, picks up my desk, and walks away with it!!! Yes! Can you believe this?! He walked away with my friggin desk! O_O" So I get pissed (again) and move to another seat so he moves to a seat closer to me and continues annoying me but than decides to move back to his original seat.

Uuugh! What do I do?!?!?! The teacher could care less and my friend in that class doesn’t even help me! O_O She sits there and laughs at his torturing me. O_O Honestly, how cruel does one get. (and yes u know who u are *.*)so…help? anyone? *squeak*

Hey ppl! I'm extremely bored. So message me or comment with your requests. I wanna make some banners for ppl.

But if its for a story you made, you'll have to give me a basic summary of your story (so i can set the banner's mood) and a physical description of your character unless you don't mind my choosing any pic for the character(they will be pretty pics i promise).

I'M WAITING FOR YOUR REQUESTS!!!

If you want a sample of my work, go to my homepage:
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I'm feeling...down...so here are random emo/goth pics for you. enjoy. (sorry some of them were too big so they got cut off. and I'm too lazy to resize em.)

P.S> YES I AM BORED!!!















































































































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So today I decided to go to the park with my family. Its this park that's actually a forest with a really really really long trail. But when we got there, there were like 10 cop cars around the entrance. So we parked by the road and came up to the cops to ask if we could pass but they said "No. We're doing an investigation." Than we got the news ppl to tell us what was going on and they said that they found a body in the woods. And ye. That's all. lol. Kinda weird.

Heres the article I found online about it:

Body found in Gunpowder Falls State Park
Father, 2 sons discover remains in woods off Belair Road
4:32 PM EST, November 22, 2007
Baltimore County police are seeking to identify the body of a man who was found today in Gunpowder Falls State Park, spokesman Bill Toohey said.

A father walking with his two young sons found the body about noon in the woods off Belair Road, about a mile north of Forge Road, Toohey said. The three had moved off the trail and into the wooded area, Toohey said, where the father saw a tarp on the ground. When he discovered a body underneath, the man called police, Toohey said.

It is unknown how long the body has been there, he added.

Police also are investigating an old Chevrolet hatchback parked on the other side of Belair Road that had been in a gravel parking lot for a month, Toohey said. The car was filled with numerous items, including a backpack, a small broom and several boxes.

"There may be no connection," Toohey said. "They could be ... tied together, or they could have nothing to do with anything."

http://www.baltimoresun.com/news/local/baltimore_county/bal-body1122,0,6230861.story